Days when you are really in need of grace, because you know you have blown it? Or you just don't have the energy to tackle the issue or problem before you? Or your own bad attitude, as was the case with me?
It is times like this, that it seems all I can feel, or think, or see, is the issue, and me facing it. And it seems huge. And I seem small and powerless.
Until God's grace takes over, and gently guides me back to Him. To focus on Him, and not me. That He is in charge, that He is bigger than anything, anyone, or any issue that has me in a curmudgeonly way. He gently reminded me of this recently, through three things.
First, through a twitter feed. I know...of all things! A dear friend's son had re-tweeted a post from a person I don't even know. The tweet simply said, "His grace is sufficient for me". I know that verse, I have shared that verse, used that verse, memorized that verse, and obviously forgotten to apply that verse.
Me thinking: Ok God, yes, your grace is what I am really in need of today. And I say a quick prayer, "Please God, cover me with your grace today. I feel weary, and know I am not thinking with a good attitude, so please forgive me. Your grace is all I ever need, wherever you take me, may I recognize, Your grace IS more than sufficient for me."
Second, through the song of a child, my sweet three year old grand daughter, whose new favorite song is "My God is so big". She began to sing it, as I was driving in the car with her.
And she said, as she began, 'Come on Nana, sing with me.' And so Nana sang,
" My God is so big, so strong and so mighty, there's nothing my God cannot do.
The mountains are His, the valleys are His, the stars are His handiwork too.
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty, there's nothing my God cannot do, FOR YOU!"
Out of the mouths of babes often comes the message He wants us to hear!
Me thinking: I hear you Lord. What ever the issue is, YOU are bigger. There is nothing You cannot do. I just need to turn it over to YOU! And again a prayer, "Dear God, Wow, thank you for this moment, and this precious child! Thank you for the reminder, again, that I don't do any of this alone. Even my stinkin' thinkin'; You and You alone, can help me change those thoughts into fruitful thoughts, into prayers".
And third, when after 4 days of not being in the word of God :/ I finally sat down and opened the word, not to where I had been reading, but turning to Isaiah for a reason I don't know other than God's grace was directing me there. This is what I read from Chapter 40.
Bear with me, as I share some of the verses with you, and what I felt God was speaking to me in those verses.
Get yourself UP on a high mountain, O Zion, bearer of good news, lift up your voice mightily, O Jerusalem, bearer of good news, lift up and say to the cities
Here is YOUR GOD!
[And I hear: Get up girl, lift your voice to ME, talk to ME, I am YOUR God]
Who has measured the waters in the hollow of His hand?
And marked the span of the heavens, by a span
And calculated the dust of the earth by the measure
And weighted the mountains in a balance, and the hills in a pair of scales?
verse 21 -22
Do you not know, have you not heard...
It is He who is enthroned above the circle of the earth
And its inhabitants are like grasshoppers, Who stretches out the heavens like a curtain...
To whom will you liken me? That I should be his equal? Says the Holy One.
Lift up your eyes on high, and see who has created these stars. The One who leads forth their host by number, He calls them all by name, because of the greatness of His might and the strength of His power, not one of them is missing.
[And I hear: Have you forgotten who I am, dear child. I created everything. I know the measurements of not just the waters of earth, but the expanse of the universe. Is anything greater than ME? What will you liken me too? And do I need to point out the stars to you, again? - (the stars ALWAYS get me!) I am bigger than anything you see, hear or feel. I am mightier than anything. It's about ME and My might, not you and your strength. ]
And finally verses 28-29
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, Does NOT become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power.
[And I hear: It's ok to feel the weariness, occasionally, but just know that your God never gets weary. Your strength comes from Me, not from your own resources. I just need to remind you of that from time to time. If you never got weary, you, my precious child, would begin to think you didn't need me, that it was all about you and your strength. So when you get weary, and I know you will from time to time, draw even closer to me. I will fill you up, you will gain new strength, that not of yourself, but from ME.]
And again I pray, "Forgive me Lord. How easily I forget. How easily I get distracted. I am so grateful for you grace that guides me back, your strength and your strength alone that empowers me, and your love which sent Jesus here, to save me from my own ways. You are bigger than any thing I will ever face, ever. Period. You alone are sufficient for me.
Your blessings overwhelm me.
My God is so Big. Our God is so Big. There is absolutely nothing our God cannot do!